excited......

i feel so excited about my return to work tomorrow.......

to see familiar places, faces......

wishing on a star!

when i heard this song of rose royce, i was caught by the nice lyrics and voice. i prayed that my wish will be fulfilled and the stars would make it come true. But what is happening to me? I am still trapped in childish wishes......

Palawan, 2004

Beautiful sunset at the Snake Island, Palawan

Photo with Rochelle Sobrepena at the Snake Island, Palawan

Underwater Cave entrance.....

Boracay Travel, May 2005

This is one of the 3 photos i have for my travel to Boracay before i left to Toronto in November 2005.

I clumsily erased our photos at the hotel in Aklan......I know Abby and my sister Aida were frustrated. I felt so bad!

The Big D!!!

My mind is empty now.....can't think of anything! I feel emply right now, don't know what to do or say. I feel trapped inside my soul which has nothing inside! Emptinesss is a way of looking at experience. I almost have no friends here, no one to talk to about regrets, feelings and what could have beens......

Yes, the what if's, had i not left the country....then i would still be working where i am happy. I could still be travelling and being with friends. Talking and discussing events, feelings and about the pasts and the futures with good friends, being happy! Yes, being happy!!!

Happiness is just a state of mind! Living here is quite cheery, but i have no friends to talk to......no one to laugh with......'coz we have a different sense of humour. I need to interact with different people. I know I am moody......

Or can i blame myself.....the irritability, the moodiness, and the frustrations, the headaches when i am high, and even the sweating and shakes when i am low! How can someone understand me, when i am in between all that.....there are no lights that that start blinking to alert someone that I am having a diabetic issue.

I know i should be thankful for having Frank with me....he has given me shots, treated my lows, brought me to my appointments, encouraged me, picked me up the floor after i fainted and hit my head on the wall!

Now all i can say is.....thank you for loving me, in spite and despite of all my flaws!